Navigating your dreams and your reality can be a tedious process that can quite often drive the sanest of us into a depressive episode.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m living below my potential…the life I envision for myself and the one I’m living are a complete contrast of each other. Hear me out, I have always been a dreamer, a thinker. Added to that I am somewhat of a perfectionist and the cherry on top; I am not the most patient person you’ll meet.
I like things done a certain way on my own timing and having to wait for things to work out can sometimes weigh heavily on my mind. That being said, being filled with ideas and dreams, not just any dreams. The ones where you close your eyes and it feels as though you are actually living them, the ones that are so real you can almost taste it, having these kinds of dreams and living an alternate reality can be pretty emotionally exhausting.
These last few weeks have been an emotional ride for me, when I think about the ideas that flow through my mind on a daily basis and I examine where I am its quite frankly frustrating. I was so discouraged to the point of giving up on pursuing this blog again. Let’s face it, trying to grow a wholesome social media platform in today’s climate is an almost impossible task. But I was reminder by a friend that the things I desire will indeed happen. I woke up one morning to a text that I will insert; that gave me enough strength to push through the minor depression I was feeling about my life.
That text taught me two things:
One – it is important to have people in your life who aren’t just attached to you but who are also assigned to you. People who can see and feel your dreams just as much as you can and will help you to pray and push until those dreams come to pass.
Two – that all hope is not loss, I mean how could it be when God is showing someone else that what I desire will indeed manifest.
I know getting from the dream phase to the reality phase of the things that you aspire for takes great courage and immense work. I have never been one to shy away from work but truth be told feeling defeated and not wanting to continue has been a familiar feeling recently. I want so desperately to be living in my dream but I just don’t have the drive to work on what seems impossible at this very moment. Quite the conundrum I know.
Regardless, I am determined to see the things that I envision become my reality and so once again I am knocking myself off, restructuring and trying again. And weather I fail or succeed, I will continue to fight for the life I dream of. I am a firm believer in the simple fact that there is nothing my mind can conceive that I cannot achieve. So, I will continue to dream with my eyes wide open while toiling to see those goals turn reality.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
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